Description: After a dumb fight with Scott, my boyfriend, I wrote this poem. We hadn't been together very long at the time & it really affected our relationship. The poem is basically about feelings of being stuck in a rut, & taking it out on Scott.

Out of the flames & into the fire,

I feel so much, so much I desire,

I wish I could change the world, make it beauty & wonder,

When I'm standing here, unable to change it, motionless, I wish I could tear it assunder,

My motives are clean, peace is what I seek,

Sometimes, instead, havoc is what I reek,

I hurt you, I know it, it's not what I enjoy,

It's just lately that's all I can seem to employ,

I can't change anything, I'm stuck, between a rock & a place that won't budge,

I don't know what to do anymore, frustrated with my life, the way things are, my judge,

I try again not to hurt you but I start all over,

I know not my motives, those I must discover,

I just know I'm frustrated, unhappy, I miss you,

Bored, lonely, aching for someone to hold me, too,

A combination of emotions that all lead to this trap,

A bend in my emotion, & there I go, *snap*,

Everything is so hard to make sense of, & sometimes, it's true,

The only thing that really makes sense is what I have with you.

Before ________&________After

Older List:
Narcissus - 2007-12-12
Without - 2007-11-18
Hunger - 2007-11-18
Beyond - 2007-11-18
So Beautiful - 2007-10-12